Not trying to snatch anyone's clique, not trying to suck up anyone, i also not a sucker, anyone did sth wrong, needed to say sorry, i said sorry doesnt mean i just want to get forgiveness from anyone, i am a slow-minded person, if you don't tel me what's going on, how am i going to know, things around me might let me know what i did wrongly, but sometimes, i just do not know what was happening, you'all having a high expectation from me to change, but i just cannot hit that standard you'all wants, what you wanna me to do, if i never change, you'all will say that i keeping empty promises, if i change a bit, you'all also never feel anything, you'all cold towards me, i kept quiet, you'all having post about me, i did nothing too, what shall i do, i say sorry also got wrong, say i only wants to get forgiveness, never try to understand what i did, i stay quiet, you'all thought i don't want this friendship, you'all chat sth and other ppl don't what to say, it is keep quiet, if chat along, then you'all thought i wanna suck up ppl,you'all have your own conversation, i go chat with other ppl, you'all thought i wanna snatch your clique, i just wanna chat only, like this also got wrong mehh... I really don't know what to do, i go home without you'all, you'all thought i pangsei, you'all never think when you pangsei ppl, what will the person being pangsei feel, you'all only know how to say others pangsei you, never think about when you pangsei ppl, you'all talk secrets, i try to go away, because secrets are things that you and another friend wanted to say something, i don't want to be said join their conversation, scared you snatch my friend, i go home early is because i don't want to be alone in the train with other strangers around, have a classmate or friend around makes me feel safer, can? I don't know what happen, how can i care? i also don't know care about what...